i hate life.
nothing good ever comes my way.
i thought you cared. apparently you dont.
its always been so one-sided.
why am i so blind.
why did we even 'reconcile' in the first place.
i knew that nothing would come out of it anyway.
its obvious, you dont like me.
thanks for saying that you do man.
i always get false hope.
and its always disappointment in the end.
some people get everything.
positions, snrs who care alot about them, everything.
me? nothing.
why am i so unlucky.
i put in effort, and in the end, what? NOTHING.
i hate cedar.
it has caused me so much tears, sorrow, disappointment.
you are leaving soon already,
but do we even treasure the time?
i asked you to come take from me.
you said you were busy.
why din you come some other time or aft sch or sth?
its clear, you dont even care about it, dont even want it.
so whats the point of me wanting to give?
thanks man.
i treated you like gold
you treated me like sawdust.
why had i even been chosen for ltc in the first place?
like this, i wouldnt be instructor, and i wouldnt meet you.
why do you claim you care,
when you dont even give a damn about me when im down?
sighs.
im at a loss now.
i really want to die.
iLOVEu
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